Too Anxious to Commit

When I Can't Do Something

Committing to anything is difficult for me. After almost 20 years of dealing with depression and anxiety, I’ve learned a great deal about myself and what level of commitment I can make.

Too many times I’ve committed to a social function only to call and cancel. The dread, although irrational, was very real to me. I was unable to cope. Caught in a vicious cycle of committing and cancelling my self-esteem suffered.

I’ve lost friends because I can’t commit. An unfortunate side-effect of depression and anxiety. But I am fortunate to have a large group of supportive friends and family who understand. They are quick to forgive me when I cancel.

Now that I’m older and wiser I’m slow to make social commitments. I know what I’m comfortable attending and what I’m not. And I no longer feel guilty for saying no.

The secret, I find, is to know my limits and work within them. This is a good thing and I something I can truly commit to.

 

2 thoughts on “Too Anxious to Commit

  1. I am proud of you Jane for knowing your boundaries of that moment in time and knowing that, that is what it is… just a moment, a morning or a day or whatever but it will pass and that cloud will lift and a lovely feeling will wash over you again. Your friend Judy…Hugs!

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