A tiny ray of light pierces the darkness and with it a flicker of a thought, an idea, a plan.
As the light grows stronger the monsters in the shadows shift and change. They flit about seeking a darker place to hide. They shrink from the light. They writhe and burn.
The horror in the dark can so easily be ignored when cloaked in darkness, but it is light that brings the beasties into focus. They claw and skitter farther into the shadows. The monsters are not a surprise. Their presence can be felt long before the light begins to shine.
Under the cover of denial, the monsters become bolder rearing their ugly faces to lash out. Hatred, anger, and rage spew from their mouths. They long to drag everyone down into the darkness with them.
Everyone has a monster or two in their closet. The mistake we make is trying to fight someone else’s monsters when the only beasties we can slay are our own.
And so there is a flicker of a thought, an idea, a plan…
I saw you through the window screen, drying dishes. “Hi, how are you?” I asked.
There was the briefest of glances before you said, “I don’t want to talk to you”. You spoke each word slowly and clearly, tightly controlling the hate you felt for me. You raised your eyes to meet mine and I recoiled from the darkness I saw there. All the hate and fury bubbling just below the surface, waiting for a release from which there was no return.
My heart finally understood what my head always knew; I was dead to you and always would be. My heart forgave you the day I apologized to you. Something wonderful happens when you give forgiveness, you receive peace even if your forgiveness is not accepted. I naïvely expected you to do the same but my pain never crossed your mind.
I will stop trying to extend the olive branch and leave you to your hate. You are the only one who can conquer it, and I hope you do before it robs you of all the joy you could be experiencing.
May you find the path that leads you out of darkness and into peace.